Friday was my last day at my job. I didn't leave on my own accord; my position was eliminated. My job duties were given to a new employee that started just a few weeks ago.
Yes, you read that right. Yes, this is the same job that I raved about on here, and that I believe I had manifested using the law of attraction.
At first I was angry and disappointed. But as the weekend went on, my feelings dissipated quite a bit and I realized that what happened was a blessing.
Yes, the job initially was everything I had wanted and was vibrating. I did love it -- for about the first month. But every week after that (and eventually, every day) it became more and more apparent that the position and the company itself were not a vibrational match to me. This past Sunday I actually felt huge relief knowing I'd never return to that place.
I then watched part of an online film that my fellow LOA friend sent to me on the topic of abundance and this morning, I had an epiphany...one that took only five layoffs over the course of 20 years in the corporate world to realize.
I want to pursue a writing career. I am not a marketing strategist, nor do I ever want the responsibilities that come with an executive management role. I am not a SEO expert (although I definitely know and can apply a lot more about SEO than I did a few years ago), or a paid search specialist (yuck.) I'm a writer. I'm always at my happiest and most fulfilled when I'm writing.
(I also do think I'm still great at social media, and I still have my on-going freelance gig with my other company...and I actually killed it today on Twitter with a giveaway that attracted hundreds of new followers to our handle. I intend to keep that job for as long as possible.)
I don't know what kind of writing career I eventually want. Maybe journalism and working for a magazine. Years ago I took a writing for women's magazine class (before classes all went online) and I loved it. I'm thinking of taking a few more classes in freelance and magazine writing through MediaBistro.
Right now, my goal is to get a fun, paid, freelance writing gig to make a few extra dollars and enjoy it until I figure out my next move. Now is the time to stop denying this dream to myself...to squelch the previous voices that said there's no way to make a living from it and that jobs are scarce.
Also, this was my horoscope for this week from the New York Times. If this isn't spot on and a sign that I'm headed in the right direction, I don't know what is:
Capricorn: It’s possible, even now, to tell yourself a different story than the one that’s been told to you. You can map your own path and speak your own name. This week, remind yourself how much courage you’ve shown in the face of weirdness and change and loss. When the world can’t see your true bright core, you can still see it for yourself. Let it warm you. Let it shine gold in the night. You’re still in motion, and you belong to yourself.
I'm also on day 2 of a 30-day happiness experiment I learned about last year that I've been meaning to try. I'll write more about that in my next post.
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